Thursday, February 19, 2009

IVF Update

An ItchyTingle Health Report

Finally called the IVF clinic since I didn't get test results from the January appointment. Results:

Cystic Fibrosis = negative (I am not a carrier)
Sean's blood type = A+
Marcy's blood type = A+
Sean's STDs = none
Marcy's STDs = none
German Measles = I am immune
A1C number = 6.8

Tomorrow AM, I go in for another A1C check. They won't do the IVF if it's not under 7, but would ideally like it to be under 6. I'm pretty proud of myself because it was 8.8 in October and I've dropped it 2 whole points in 3 months through meds and better eating.

If the A1C is still dropping, I will start on the Lupron shots on Monday. Otherwise, we might wait another month.

Stayed home sick again today (nasty cold) and was productive in scheduling my first mammogram (my doctor would like that to be done before we do IVF, even though I'm kind of young), and a "Well-Woman" visit (as they call it). Also scheduled an appointment with my regular doctor as a follow up on the A1C and keeping my sugar down.

So, things are heading in the right direction, even if the IVF doesn't happen for a couple of months. Might be for the best - March is a high-travel month for me, would be difficult if I have ot do an egg retrieval in there, too!

Keep on hopin'!!

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Saturday, February 14, 2009

There's nothing wrong with me loving you

Since Valentine's Day is so often celebrated with food of some sort (going out to dinner, chocolates, etc.) I couldn't resist sharing what I read today about aphrodisiac foods (this is from AOL Living). I've never heard of durian or rapini, but some of my favorite foods are on this list! Hmmmmm...

Durian
Durian is so offensively odorous that it is banned in most hotels and airplanes. But once you get past the odor, this "king of fruits" has a pulp that is said to taste like a rich custard. So is the alleged arousal worth suffering the stink? Perhaps… if you believe the famous Malaysian saying, "When the durians come down, the sarongs come off."

Nutmeg
Next time you're pouring nutmeg on your cappuccino, go easy! Although in small doses this piquant spice can cause a drunken, aphrodisiac effect, in large quantities (anything over four teaspoons), nutmeg can spur highly dangerous hallucinogenic reactions. But don't get any ideas: Intravenous injection of nutmeg can be fatal.

Green M&Ms
Although no one knows the true origins of the green M&Ms myth, it is theorized that it began back in the 70's, when students started feeding the green ones to their crushes. Mars embraced the urban legend, turning Green into a long-lashed sex symbol, and even creating bags of all-green candies for a Valentine's Day promotion.

Chocolate
The Aztecs were no fools! They coined chocolate "nourishment of the gods" when they noticed how their moods improved after eating cocoa confections. Indeed, as contemporary science has revealed, chocolate contains subtle traces of the mood-lifter Seratonin, which increases heart rate and induces feelings of happiness and love.

Garlic
It might be the last thing you want to eat before kissing someone, but garlic is said to stir sexual desires. In fact, the fragrant bulb is so famously amorous that Tibetan monks were once forbidden from entering Monasteries after eating it. And it's no urban legend: Modern science has confirmed that garlic improves blood circulation, in turn enhancing sexual performance.

Oysters
When we think aphrodisiacs, oysters are often the first delicacy that comes to mind -- but do they live up to the claims? Well slurp away, lovers. Science has granted credence to the sensual shellfish's aphrodisiac reputation -- oysters are high in zinc and aspartic acids which, in fact, increase testosterone levels.

Avocado
The Aztecs are responsible for the avocado's standing as an aphrodisiac, and again, they were on the money. The buzz started because avocados hang from trees in pairs, which prompted the Aztecs to call the fruit "Ahuacuatl" (which translates to, er, "Testicle tree"). But indeed, avocados are rich in vitamin E – the same nutrient that makes asparagus famous for friskiness.

Asparagus
Even beyond its suggestive shape, asparagus boasts a natural sexual booster. The popular spring veggie is rich in vitamin E, which is thought to stimulate production of sex hormones.

Tarantula
Although the people of Cambodia started eating tarantulas out of necessity during the food-scarce communist regime, they went back for seconds when they discovered the venom worked as an aphrodisiac. Today, deep fried tarantulas – which are gooey on the inside – remain a regular menu item, ripe for the epicurean adventurer.

Snake
In Eastern countries, snake is the king of aphrodisiacs. The slithery creature is said to enhance the yang (or hot, excited energy), making it not only a potent medicine but also a libido enhancer. In China, snake meat is a restaurant delicacy, and in Vietnam, snake wine – venomous snake steeped or mixed in rice wine – is readily available to boost romance.

Truffles
Highly coveted truffles' intoxicating quality isn't in their taste, but their smell. Allegedly, the musky scent stimulates the skin and mirrors male pheromones (which explains why sows seek them out in the wild). Others theorize that truffles' appeal lies in the loaded price tag – up to $500 per pound! – making them the diamonds of mushrooms.

Rapini
No matter what you've heard about its passionate power, the bitterly flavored rapini, also known as broccoli rabe, might not be your first choice for a romantic meal. And although the ground seeds of various plants in rapini's Brassica family are believed to increase virility, the overarching theory on this veggie's rep as an aphrodisiac is that it's merely a marketing ploy to get people to eat it.

Alcohol
Alcohol may lower your inhibitions, but it does not inherently raise your sex appeal. In fact, alcohol is a depressant that tends to slow the sex drive. As the porter in Shakespeare's Macbeth tells us, it "provokes the desire, but it takes away the performance." The one exception is red wine, which increases estrogen levels when drank in moderation.

Crocodile
In Thailand, the most erotic of eats is stewed crocodile. The long-held belief is that anyone who eats crocodile takes on the giant reptile's spirit and aggression. Although there is no scientific proof that eating crocodile will put you in the mood, the meat does have many feel-good substances like natural antioxidants and Omega-3.

A couple of interesting V-Day facts:

120: Number of single men to every 100 single women
The US Census Bureau counts 120 single white men in their 20s (never married, widowed or divorced) for every 100 white women the same age. The odds differ by race: Hispanics are 153 per 100; Asians are 132 per 100; and African Americans shift down to 92 black males for every 100 black females in the same age range.

20-30: Percent higher condom sales
All those romantic gifts and dinners may put couples in the mood, but the good news is that they're being safe. Condom-maker Durex reports a spike in condom sales of about 20-30% around the holiday. In other V-Day sex news, reportedly more home pregnancy tests are sold in March than any other month.

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Sunday, February 08, 2009

Contemplating Peace


Human Nature

At the park on Friday, I went to a place where there was an observation deck for observing animals and birds in a big field. It was very serene, and very empty.

I've found that with the camera, I spend a lot more time looking up and out, and not looking down (which is what I tend to do when I'm walking, making sure not to step in anything or lose my footing). As I came back to the car after spending an hour or so at this spot, I looked down. And this is what I saw...



I kind of chuckled, thinking someone had enjoyed this spot, and at least they were being safe. When I got in the car and looked out the window, here's what I saw, a few feet away...


So then I took this one, to complete my photo essay of Human Nature, which shows the proximity of the items.

I guess there's always a little bit of human in nature.

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Friday, February 06, 2009

Leaving

I don't know if it was Girl Scouts or what, but I learned somewhere along the way to always leave a place better than you found it. In Girl Scouts, this meant that you clean the cabin before you leave, even if it was a mess when you got there.

Today, I leave the place where I've been staying. I am washing the sheets, towels, and dishes, vacuuming, packing my stuff. It makes me a little sad. I love it here. This space has been healing for me, a place of respite. I am so grateful for the friends who let me stay here, so much so that when I think about my gratitude I get tears in my eyes.

This space was full of good karma when I got here. It is a warm and beautiful home, open and light, and you just feel good when you are in it. And to have it all to myself for this week has been a gift like no other.

Coming in to a place so wonderful already, how do you leave it better than you found it? It was very clean when I got here, so I can clean. But I'm not sure how to leave it better. The only thing I can hope for is to leave some of my own good karma, my gratitude, my revelations, my openness, and hope the next residents here will feel those things.

It got me thinking about the lives we touch - do we leave people better than we find them? Are we gentle with the people we meet, knowing they are only ours for a short time?

Sometimes we take for granted the people who should mean the most to us. Those who are closest to us never seem to get the best of us - they get the worst. It's a phenomenon I never understand when I look back and see that I've done (and continue to do) it.

I truly believe that the people in our lives are there for a reason. Sometimes they are only there for a short time, sometimes they are in our lives for a lifetime. But they always bring something that we need in our lives for the time they are with us. Maybe it is a sympathetic ear during a job you didn't like. Maybe they settle in your heart so that even when you go for long periods of time without talking, they are still there, so the next time you connect it's like no time has passed since the last time.

Even people who bring pain into our lives have a reason. Maybe it is to shake us out of our lethargy so that we can find energy for living. Maybe it is to show us through adversity the strength in ourselves. Think about the people who have hurt you - what did you learn from that experience? That is their reason.

Likewise, our gifts are meant for the people whose lives we weave ourselves in and out of. Maybe for a lifetime, maybe for a moment. Are the gifts we share leaving people better than we found them?

I've been singing a song by Sara Groves a lot lately, called "Loving a Person." The part of the song that always hits me is:

"Loving a person just the way they are, that's no small thing.
That's the whole thing."

I'd like to add a verse to that song:
"Loving OURSELVES just the way we are, that's no small thing.
That's the whole thing."
Maybe by loving people, things, and ourselves the way we find them - no matter how we find them - is real love. Loving the dark and the light, the sweet and the sour, the quiet and the loud, the hot and the cold, and finding beauty and appreciation for all of it. Maybe that's how we leave things better than we found them - by loving them just as they are.

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The photo above is the space where I journaled every morning.